Return of the Video Blogs!

New laptop, new webcam, new video blogs! Yes, the video blogging has returned to YouTube.com/JasonCurious - click the subscribe button there so you can be the first to get them!

Here's one with me and Cheech in Seattle getting ready for the big Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence event at The Cuff Complex (where she was made a Saint!) the weekend previous and another one with my mom taken just minutes ago here in Florida where I'm on vacation for a week.

...Actually, I don't really know what a vacation is anymore, so I'm sitting here on my computer working, blogging, answering emails and haven't even been here for an hour.

But mom's making banana chocolate chip bread and then her famous lasagna and we're catching up here in the kitchen while I'm blogging away!

I Have The Best Friends Ever

I am really excited to head to San Diego tomorrow morning with Jason Ridge. Not just because we're going to be seeing Tori Amos together, but because I'm actually anxious to just spend two days with one of my friends without the distractions and other people that West Hollywood and the porn industry bring. It's been a very, very long time coming (remember that video blog? ...and I was also his publicist that got him on "The Howard Stern Show," and I was the first person to ever interview him my web show ...and hosted his "Best of Jason Ridge" video for Jett Blakk -- talk about history!), but Jason and I have grown up a lot and are very good friends these days I'm happy to say.

This entire trip from soup to nuts (that includes a massive suite and 2nd row seats!) in fact is courtesy him and I'm not sure what I ever did to deserve that but it's nice to feel taken care of as someone who is so often in a line of work that involves taking care of so many other people.

I'm also being treated to Seattle this weekend by one of my best friends, Chi Chi LaRue! I've never been before and we'll be going along with Josh Griffin and meeting up with our mutal friend Chelsia Hart, Sister Roma and the Sisters of Perpetual Indulgence for an evening at The Cuff Complex this Saturday. Josh Griffin in fact, who is another one of my very best friends, hails from Seattle so he will be showing us around for the weekend and taking care of us, so I'm very excited about that trip too.

I then have a week back in L.A. before I head to Florida to see my mom for an entire week. It's been a year since we've seen each other and that's the longest in my life so I'm looking forward to some quality bonding time and a nice vacay.

Travel, friends, family, music, laughter, food ...I'm so blessed! Turining out to be quite the Summer.

Speaking of Independence...

I had recently decided I needed to do an entry here about how my personal views on sex and romance have changed so drastically in the last year; the change being that I don't seem to crave either at all anymore.

Bygone are the days of going to clubs with the intentions of finding a hot boy to bring home, much less go to dinner with as if I have time for small talk. Part of this is probably that I will turn 30 this year and many of my friends tell me that sex becomes much less important as you hit that point in life. Working in porn contributes to it as well I'm sure. I've had sex with literally every kind of guy I've ever wanted to have sex with and I've lived out pretty much every fantasy I ever had.

I've lived in love and I've lived single and am aware neither are easy so I can't say I prefer one to the other. Both have their advantages and disadvantages. I see some people so much younger than I who believe finding a boyfriend will fix all their problems. The truth is, it does fix a lot of problems, but it also creates new ones.

I am very lucky in that I am never lonely for some reason, even when I spend a few days without leaving the house. I've always been that way. I like being alone and even in relationships, I require a lot of personal space and alone time. I don't have that gene that "needs" someone. That's not to say I don't crave attention (clearly, I do!), but I get that fix from work. In life though and love, I am incredibly self-sufficient.

And let's face it, with all the different facets of my career I don't have much time in my life to really devote to love. I prefer putting that energy into my friends, my career and my own personal discovery and growth. Partnerships take work to be done properly, they require selflessness and putting the other person before you. I also often think it wouldn't be fair of me to expect anyone to even be in a relationship with me. I'm not the easiest person in the world to deal with and my schedule, my lifestyle and career don't help that much either for people who aren't a part of my bubble.

So, as I've written here before, as far as I'm concerned I have no desire to be in a relationship unless I feel like I don't really have a choice in the matter.

If you can't help it, then you're in love.

And since there are few things I love celebrating more than my independence, I was very much looking forward to taking a three day weekend and whooping it up with my pals in the spirit of my free spiritedness.

The madness began Thursday evening. I had my photographer Thomas "T Ball" Trevor stop by The Mans to take pics of a new boy for my DV8 Casting agency named Lance Bennett. The stud was supposed to leave the next morning but was dying to stay for the 4th of July so I helped arrange for him to stay until Monday morning and we proceeded to meet up with porn star Ryan Raz who was also in town, my friend Essay and a few others at Tigerheat.

I love the music at Tigerheat, I love the layout of the club and I'm friends with most of the dancers, but I hate really big crowds so I tend to spend most of the evening with the head dancer, Josh Griffin (another DV8 Casting boy I happen to represent) downstairs in the dressing room. Josh was pretty busy that evening, as were the other dancers and after a couple of hours we decided to head to Essay's for an intimate after party that lasted just long enough. I love heading home as the sun's coming up. I don't so much like heading home when the sun is already out.

The next morning I fell out of bed, screamed "Marix!" at the top of my lungs and Essay somehow heard me from a few miles away. I jumped in the shower, he picked me up and we headed to Marix for a fabulous Mexican lunch to cure our hangovers. While there, I had one of those rare moments where I'm incredibly decisive. I put down my drink, straightened my back, looked straight at Essay and said, "I'm going to have a pool party."

"Really?" he asked. "When?"

"Right now!" I answered. "Why the fuck not? I have a pool at The Mans and I never use it! It's 4th of July weekend. Let's have people over."

Though little time was spent by the pool and most was spent in my gorgeous air conditioned room listening to music, chatting it up and partying our asses off, within an hour or so, we were joined by Joe Kenan, Brandon Baker, Chase Harding (one of my latest additions to DV8 Casting), Tristan Mathews, Shane Risk, Josh Griffin, Bobby Trendy, Ryan Raz and a new friend/potential-discovery of mine Kennedy.

There's nothing better than being surrounded by your friends, making sure they are safe, having a good time and sharing memories you'll never forget. I was especially grateful that Brandon Baker had made it out for the weekend. He lives in Vegas and I don't get to see him nearly as much. Absence truly does make the heart grow fonder.

We dispersed a bit later so everyone could change and get ready for an underground underwear party we were invited to later in the evening. It was decided we would all meet up again at Numbers for a quick drink and head downtown from there. At Numbers we met back up with my hot newbie Lance from the night before as well as his friends and then it was off to the party.

Aside from someone throwing up in the car on the way there and not being able to take any alcohol upstairs in this three story loft, this part of the evening was a joy. It was ok, actually. I ran into so many people I knew there who I had not expected to see. The more people I know in a crowd, the less likely I am to be uncomfortable in it.

What was more fun though was Joe Kenan's house after. When the boys weren't getting more naked to put on a show, there was a magician who kept doing card tricks and bending spoons. ...No joke. We find a good time don't we? I had such an unExpectedly good time in fact that I decided to head out after and go to a club called Scandal with Brandon and Essay. At this point, it's 4:00 in the morning so as you can imagine I'm threeee sheets to the wind. A real hoot and a half.

We didn't stay long though. Brandon was done and ready to head out pretty quickly and I had for some reason decided very early in the evening that I was going absolutely nowhere without him. I do tend to attach myself to a friend and make it "our" evening. I don't think I've ever gone out and just jumped from crowd to crowd or person to person throughout the night. I need someone there from beginning to end for familiarity. Tonight I'd decided it would be Brandon. Thankfully, he was okay with that and maybe even a little amused by whatever planet I was on by 6:00 am. Again, the sun was coming up (what a fucking BEAUTIFUL morning that was too! the dew on the bushes and the pinkness of the sky and looking out from the view of the Mans over all the little houses and all the big buildings above me and the... "Jason, open the door." Oh yeah!) and here I was just rolling into bed with Brandon Baker! I'm glad he decided to crash with me for the night.

Brandon had taken really good care of me at The RentBoy.com Pool Party in Palm Springs last month so it was nice to take care of him, even if only a little. I got him water and an extra blanket so he wouldn't be too cold (I like to sleep with it freezing in my room bundled up under lots of blankets) and apparently I sang him lullabyes too! "Heal the World" was a favorite, as well as a ballad version of "Just Dance" that I came up with off the top of (what was left of) my head.

Finally I literally forced myself to go to sleep. It was the first time I've slept in a bed with anyone in a very, very long time. Even when I have had sex with people, I don't like to cuddle after because I don't see the point in pretending there's some emotion involved when I just met the person mere hours before! On top of which, I don't sleep well at all next to someone. I hate hearing them breathe and I hate how hot they make the bed and I hate when they touch me. I know! I have some serious issues. Whatever.

But I have slept in the same bed as Brandon before and because he's such a good friend, there are actually real emotions there. I would so much rather sleep in the same bed as one of my best friends then some random stranger I just fucked. Sleeping with a friend, you feel comfort, security, true warmth. You truly care about the person next to you and they care about you. So I sleep like a baby. And so did he.

We slept late, laid in bed forever until we absolutley had to go grab Chase and Kennedy from Brandon's hotel room. We went to lunch at The Cheesecake Factory in Beverly Hills where we met up with Ryan Raz and by the time that was over, it was already time to get dressed and head to Numbers for my weekly Saturday event, "INDUSTRY."

After the insanity of the last couple of days, Brandon and I both decided to take it easy for the night. I barely had two or three drinks the entire evening which was nice, but made it drag and made the people not taking it easy so much more difficult to deal with. But the fireworks were fun, you could see them from the glass walls in the back since Numbers is on the second floor. And Josh Griffin coordinated some amazing boys, got a gorgeous cake for everyone to eat and did a wonderful job on decorations as always. God bless him for being my right hand man always. I honestly don't know what I would do without him.

At long last, the evening ended. Brandon let Chase Harding and Kennedy have his hotel room and spent the night at my place again where we fell asleep in bed watching the early 80's horror movie "The Hunger." One of my faves.

Late breakfast with Bobby Trendy and Joe Kenan in West Hollywood. Brandon had some other friends to meet up with before he left town so Joe Kenan and I babysat Chase and Kennedy for a bit and had another fun filled day of partying and watching horror movies at his place. Brandon showed up and hung with us for short while before he decided it was time for him to head back to Vegas.

And thus concluded my spontaneous action packed Independence Day weekend.

I came home to find Brandon had made the bed and I think seeing that just might have actually been the highlight of my weekend. It's the little things, ya know?

I crawled into bed, stretched and said my prayers as I do every night. And every night in bed I think to myself how lucky I am that I have this big bed all to myself.

But I didn't think that last night.