Dreams of All Kinds

I am at the end of recovering from a cold here and laid down for an hour's nap before I head out to MJ's Bar to host The Porno Palace tonight when I had this dream that Ginger Lynn (pictured here) invited me over to her house along with a whole bunch of other people. She apparently had made pigeon for dinner earlier in the evening and there was some left along with this interesting pearsauce (thing applesauce, but with pears!) that she said I was welcome to. But when I took a plate of it, she seemed really pissed off I'd taken her up on her offer because it was the last of what was left. I was all about it though because I've never had pigeon and am all about trying stuff like that!

Anyway, some other industry peeps were there too and I guess Digital Playground had fired a lot of people earlier in the day who were absolutely distraught. Adella O'Neal didn't understand how after years of loyalty and devotion to the company they would do something so heinous to her and it was rumored that they were going to be banning her from attending the AVN Awards. She was fucking beside herself. There was some hot straight guy who worked for them too who was drinking himself into oblivion and when I told him I was sorry he was fired, he just started crying and hugging me. So I kept saying I was sorry so he would hold me closer, of course. Heather Pink apparently was working for the company too (????) and she had taken to pills to get over the grief but kept spilling them all over the floor and found that they were getting lost in the carpet.

Yeah. It was quite a dream!

Gene Ross was there too. Transcribing everything.

Anyway, I have been amiss the last couple of weeks I know. I have been dealing with work and getting over a cold and trying to leave some room to study through Rosh Hashana. This whole week spiritually is about not putting limits on your dreams, remembering all that you're worth, asking for more from the universe and remembering that all is meant for you and is just waiting for the taking. Hence, my last two chosen Songs of the Week on my MySpace page: "Die Another Day" (Madonna) and "Flying Dutchman" (Tori Amos).

I have added an "ASK JASON" feature to the "Diary" at JasonCurious.com, which you may be reading also on MySpace or D-List, in which case you can just post questions in the comments section. I'll be doing response posts periodically because I haven't had a chance to answer all emails and comments like I have in the past. Sorry for that, but work calls and life happens all much more frequently these days.

Speaking of which, that's another reason I haven't been posting a lot of "Diary" entries. I haven't really talked much about my personal life for the last year. I have enjoyed keeping my private life private and keeping this soapbox to political commentaries, promoting my work or sharing my hobbies. But it seems now a thing or two has come along that I wish I was chronicling. Things that I know I'll want to remember a long time from now.

It's a fine line to walk though if I'm telling the story of my life honestly because it's only from one point of view and that's obviously mine. But I still wonder if that is fair to the other people involved in my life. Angel Benton tells me that's all part of what you sign up for when you're friends or partners with anyone who is even remotely a public figure. But the thing is, it can be prevented. I don't have to expose my private life or make it about me. I haven't for the past year.

But on the other hand, I know people come to their own conclusions about who I am and why I do things I do and it was nice to have a platform to explain my side of the story of my life.

So... such is the conundrum of the moment.

Anyway, I'm feeling better and I will be back to updating the "News Desk" blog as well by Monday.