20 Questions

Another MySpace survey I was sent...

1. Have you ever been attacked by an animal?
Yes, when I was a kid, a German shepperd that belonged to my grandfather's mistress at the time (now my step-grandmother) took a bite out of my chin. The scar is still there, but you can barely see it. In fact, the only person who has ever noticed it was Christian Owen. He used to poke it and tell me it was ugly.

2. How many people have you kissed in the past 12 months?
Twelve months?!! Jesus! ... Kissed?! ... A lot. More than 12. Less than 30?

3. What kind of music is your favorite?
I like everything from Eminem to Liza Minnelli but the one thing they all have in common is that they're complicated. They don't fit into a box. I like songs that could change your life if you open up to them. I don't ever zone out to music. I think a lot.

4. What kind of music do you hate?
Anything too manufactured. Music without a soul.

5. If you could hear one song for the rest of your life, what would it be?
I don't think I would ever get tired of Madonna's "Vogue" and it would keep me inspired.

6. What bands do you want to tour with each other?
Tori Amos and David Bowie would really be something.

7. How many concerts have you been to?
Tons! But I haven't seen a lot of artists. I tend to see a few artists over and over again because not everyone is as great at live performing as they are in a studio. I've seen Liza alone nearly 20 times because even when it's the same set list, she sings it differently every time. You have to if you're in the moment. You can't try to recreate a moment or it's manufactured.

8. What was your favorite concert?
Tori in Clearwater, the week of my birthday 2007. Her song choices that night told the story of my life up until that point and it was a really emotional experience for me that I've never really been able to put into words.

9. Have you ever been in a mosh pit?
No.

10. What is your favorite instrument?
Piano, of course.

11. Are you in a band?
No I'm not and I would absolutely love to be.

12. Are you in love or have you ever been in love?
No, I am not. And yes, I have been.

13. Do you think open relationships are good?
It depends on the couple. I don't think it's good for me personally but I can't deem what's right for other people. I'm not a jealous person at all, I just really appreciate the symbolism of monogamy. That sense of selflessness and giving up your own selfish desires for another person, I think sex is a great place to start. If you can do that, you might be able to handle the rest.

14. Have you ever been cheated on?
Sure.

15. Have you ever had a wet dream?
Not really. No nocturnal emission sort of thing. Probably because I was constantly jacking off so early.

16. Where will you be 12 hours from now?
Acting class.

17. Can you make yourself cry?
Yes.

18. Do you like to masturbate?
More than I like sex usually, yes.

19. Have you ever barebacked?
I think I've been pretty honest about this before. Yes, of course I have, lots of times, and I have been fortunate enough to remain negative. I don't like the idea of living my life in fear or making decisions based on fear. I think fear is Satan. I think a lot of people are scared of HIV because they don't understand it and we're always scared of what we don't understand. I've spent months of my life researching it so that I could make what I feel are truly educated choices and I would suggest that to everyone.

I think it's sad that the world has been plagued by the HIV virus, but not any more sad than I am that it's been plagued by lung cancer. People take risks, it's a part of truly living life, and sometimes they suffer consequences. The risks we take depends on our personal preferences and our priorities in life and those are personal freedoms and choices that no one can take away from us unless we let them. I think we should be spending more money on finding a cure. But I'm not so happy we're spending more money on that already than we are on finding a cure or even treatments for breast cancer, which two to three times as many people die from every year. This is a topic I could go on and on about for pages, really. It's not as cut and dry as people make it out to be.

I will say I don't bareback nearly as much as I used to because my priorities have changed. Time has become more important to me than it was when I was younger. We only have so much of it per lifetime and I have a lot I want to accomplish so I need all the days I can get -- and I don't want them complicated with more aches and pains than necessary. I would hate to have my time cut short because of something like sex. At the same time though, I try to live my life to the fullest and really be in the moment so it's a balancing act really. I trust my instincts and the universe itself, and combined they have taken good care of me.

20. What drugs have you done and how often?
I have never smoked pot -- or even a cigarette for that matter. I think the only thing I've ever smoked is a cigar once or twice with a guy named Jeff Clark in high school. I've done coke. How many times? Over 10, less than 20. I tried ecstasy once but they were duds and didn't do a thing to me -- unfortunately. I have taken vicodin when there is some left over from a perscription or something. No GHB or crystal or LSD or anything like that. I would really like to try shrooms once or something that would get me to see like little men dancing up and down my arms or something. I think that would be a blast to experience once. I am an experimental drug user. Not frequent or recreational. I have very high seratonin levels naturally and am an incredibly hyper person. Someone who does ecstasy a lot told me once, "What I experience on ecstasy, I see you experience nearly every day of your life. Some people just have those seratonin levels naturally."