Shifting Gears
I responded to a thread on ATKOL a few days ago where people were dissing the site, the direction of the diary, etc. and my response seems to have stirred even more talk elsewhere. I posted:You have to remember, my site was always about me. It's not called Porn Star Whatever-The-Hell, it's called JasonCurious. It began as and has remained a reflection of where I am in my life and its relation to my porn star friends.
When we started the site in 2001, my entire life was about my porn star friends! I was 21. That's not my entire life anymore. I've branched out into enjoying other things and other kinds of people and am fortuante enough to have a lot of different jobs.
Also, in 2001, I was one of the only people doing this. Now it's invasion of the blogs and there's a lot of people out there doing the job a lot better than I am because I don't want to devote 8 hours a day to looking at and talking about naked people. A few hours I can manage for a few bucks. But this was never supposed to be something that became my life.
When the site launched, my life revolved around porn and naked boys. Today, it has very little to do with my life. Truth is, it just got to a point where I was working so much in adult that I was getting four hours of sleep a night. I think I had to be drowning in superficiality to really decide I wanted something more substantial from my life. The world is pretty fucked right now and I'd like to be the best version of myself that I can be and offer the most that I can to the world to try to better it. And it's not that porn doesn't better the world in its own way. It's just there's a lot of other things I could be and should be doing and I don't have time to even sit down and read Newsweek or watch the nightly news much less find time to go on any audition if I'm trying to build an empire of nakedness. I just felt like my priorities were a little fucked.
I don't want to devote my life to this business. I don't want to devote more than a few hours a day to this business. I don't want to be the next big director or big studio or big web site. It's a nice side gig for the moment that I don't plan on continuing for a whole lot longer.
This has since been posted on a few sites and message boards leading people to wonder if I am planning on leaving the adult industry.
Well... yes and no.
I may always have a foot in these waters, I'm just not diving in head first anymore. For instance, I would guess that I'll be hosting gigs where I interview porn stars for a long time to come, but the "gossip" part of what I do for a living is one of the things that will in all likelihood eventually be phased out.
I have three movies I've produced and directed that need to be released over the course of the next year so I'm not going anywhere for the moment. I'm locked into contracts through next year, interestingly enough, right around the same day I will have been working in adult entertainment for 10 years. It seems an appropriate time for a change of pace.
In the meantime, it's really just the intention that has changed. I'm not looking to "build" anymore. These days I'm doing the opposite. I'm deconstructing this mini-empire and cleaning house to decide what I want to keep and what I'm looking to get rid of. I've been doing it for a while, really. I just haven't talked about it until now.
I've always had other career aspirations. Money's not the same in adult that it used to be. We hit a big boom a few years ago and then the market flooded and became oversaturated. If I'm going to make less money or even live a hand to mouth existence, it might as well be doing what I love to do: Acting, singing and the occasional journalism and hosting.
This was not my passion. Just a fun job that fell in my lap when I needed it most.
Song of the Week: "Maggie's Farm" - Bob Dylan, Highway 61 Revisited
I wake up in the morning, hold my hands and pray for rain.
Got a head full of ideas and they're driving me insane.
They say sing while you slave and I just get bored.
I ain't gonna work on Maggie's farm no more.
posted by Jason Sechrest at 1:11 PM
7 Comments:
GOOD FOR YOU!
I think it's really cool that you do what you want in life, no matter the opinions of others. MORE people should do that!! ;-)
REMEMBER: You can't please everybody!
GOOD LUCK & STAY SEXY JASON!!!
♥
Hayden
After 7.5 years existence of JasonCurious, it is still the only site that goes more in-depth into the industry. JasonCurious build its name on the foundation of early forerunner of blogging porn industry, that may possibly be why people are bitching about the direction - they forgot the fact that it started as YOUR personal blogging site (Correct me if I'm wrong) about YOU and YOUR porn star friends.
Regardless how big the site was, is, and will become, the main spirit will not be diminished regardless where the site is heading to.
Of course if you are thinking about departing it, may be you should start the apprentice thing and I'll be happily to submit application :)
ps. Rather calling it a "deconstruction", I'd say it's a "modification".
cheers,
Jim.
Do what makes you happiest...I am just glad to have made a friend in you....you have alot of talent. I do love hearing about the goings on in the biz, but I know its gotta get old on your end after a while...Either way, you will be alright in the end....the world is your oyster...just gotta go get the elusive pearl and Im sure you will find it.
Big Hugs, D
Go with it and do what you need to do... :)
Hayden - Your head looks GREAT shaved, love it! And thanks for the kind words, as always. Hope you make it to see me soon. xo L, J.
Jimmy - OMG, an apprentice idea would be sooooo cool! lol But I think there are a couple people in the biz (one in particular) who is quickly on his way to being "the next Jason Sechrest." haha... I won't name any names. But I am proud that I was the first. xo L, J.
Don - There's soooo many sites out there giving the dish on what's going on behind the scenes these days, I wouldn't be so comfortable walking away if there weren't so many other people doing it and doing it better really. xo L, J.
Rich - Thank you, Rich. It feels good hearing that after reading so much negative feedback on other forums. xo L, J.
I hope you plan on making this site free and not charging people anymore.
9:05 - Because of our extensive archives, I could never make the hundreds of hours of streaming video and tens of thousands of photos free. It would cost too much bandwidth. I would shut the site down altogheter before making it free -- which will no doubt happen eventually. Nothing lasts forever. xo L, J.
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