Done.
I'm sure everyone else saw it coming anyway. We just had some unresolved shit to get past since our break up at the beginning of the summer. There's no blame or finger pointing. We're not mad. I don't even know that we're all that sad. We're just not what the other person needs. It's played out and it's done. And we can't go back.
I don't want to talk about it at length or go into some huge fucking diatribe.
Yes, it sucks.
Yes, I am okay.
posted by Jason Sechrest at 5:43 PM
13 Comments:
Dear Jason,
My sympathies about you and Mikey.
Just call me an old fogey at 43 (and partnered for 17+ years), but I can't help but think that blow-by-blow relationship reporting via blogs compresses the time-line for emotionally-charged thought processes to the point of ensuring 'matrimony' meltdown.
I have a cellphone but resent it and guard that number closely. I have a land-line phone connected to an answer machine and caller-id, and screen calls religiously. I have e-mail and am forever deleting unwanted/unneeded/unrequested messages from my INBOX. Again, I may be showing my age, but everything unravels too quickly in our instant-online modern age (and I am a computer consultant with a degree in Electrical Engineering...!) Perhaps a little time to think is needed for ALL of us before we act/react to life's twists and turns.
Just my thoughts... Love as always,
-- Charles
PS -- So sorry you missed the Rentboy.com cruise -- I seriously considered hopping onboard when you posted a cabin(s) opening earlier this week, but my partner works retail, and time off this time of year is impossible.
PPS -- I, too, shall miss Rocky, as I enjoyed his role in 'Ryker's Web'.
Charles,
I don't think you're neccessarily wrong.
But I also don't think a blog can/should make or break a relationship. ;-)
Nor do I think that it did.
You also have to realize that while I may give the illusion of a detailed description of my life here, you're certainly not receiving anywhere near "blow by blow" and you're receiving only one point of view.
I started this portion of the site so that other people could live vicariously through me, relate to my experiences, not feel so alone or even learn from them. That form of sharing is something I value a great deal and won't be giving up for anyone any time soon.
Love!
L,
J.
Dear Jason,
Sorry to be so vague at my end -- I was bemoaning the state of our 'instant-on' age in its whole (which is of course inescapable), and its affect on modern life...
I certainly never meant to imply that YOUR situation with Mikey was a result of anything YOU did in any of your online activities...
I am not enough of a detailed follower to presume any such analysis of your blogs (nor am I qualified to formulate any such analysis...)
I was merely bemoaning the state of our collective 'brave new world', as it were. Many of its facets frighten me to this day...
Best wishes and love as always,
-- Charles
Charles - Well, THAT I couldn't agree with more! lol ;-) xo L, J.
Life is full of mission. Your mission, which just finished, is to nourish someone with love. And at this stage, mission accomplished. May be "mission" is a bad word to describe it but at least you did your part, you invest you love in it, you did your best, you have nothing to be sad, or sorry about.
Jimmy - I think you're right. That's beautiful. Thanks. xo L, J.
Yes Jimmy got it rt maybe not mission But you sure as hell tried Jason ,you guys stay friends! i'm proof you can be friends with X's because i don't believe in recriminations! Some things are not meant to be no matter how much we "want it" You Jason will find your man, your young yet did not find my love till I was 34! Damn it's so hard had to kick those tires, take lot's of test drives, before I found a soulmate. Found him too right after I stopped looking! Yeah thats Cliche but the way life works sometimes, your future soulmate will prob knock you flat on your Ass, you'll be shocked you won't know what hit you,,,,Something to look forward too Jason ;) Take Care Dewayne Hugs not Kudos tonite!
Glad you are okay, and you should be, you havent felt "right" about the relationship for a bit it seems and you were able to walk away and make your life "right" with yourself. Take time to live and grow and have some fun and dont force anything new to happen, just make life happen. With your crazy busy life, it's good sometimes to have one less distraction until you find another mutual attraction, but dont let it define you or him.....good luck...GG
DeWayne - Okay, enough. You're gonna make me cry. Seriously. lol xo L, J.
GG - Everytime I write GG I think of my Great Grandmother because that was my nickname for her. lol... Thanks for the words of wisdom, gram. lol xo L, J.
No big shock here. Especially after you posted about fucking that other guy a few days ago.
Agreed. Maybe if you weren't such a shameless whore you'd have love in your life. Instead, you will forever be empty and alone, going from one trick to the next and living your life through porn stars, because you see in them what you fail to be.
...OR that! Yes. lol ;-)
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