First my left foot, then my right.
I am in Florida right now hanging with my mom before heading to San Francisco for The GayVN Awards. I have turned on my computer for the first time in two days to over 500 emails and hundreds of blog comments I need to sift through. I should never, ever take a day off. I'm praying half of my emails are spam. On the other hand, it's good to feel wanted.
Anyway, I just wanted to drop a quick line to let you know I'm alive. Having recently written here about being so influenced by my parents in the way I handle love and relationships, it's interesting to be back here, so close to the womb as I work towards castrating this part of me that run towards that which withholds affection. In some weird way, this trip feels like returning to the scene of the crime.
So the song of the week is Tori Amos's "Mother." I love my mother beyond words, but I don't need to follow in her footsteps. There's so much about who she is that I want to continue to emluate, but that doesn't mean I have to emulate all the choices she's made and what she does. That's what this song, in part, is about.
Anyway, I just wanted to drop a quick line to let you know I'm alive. Having recently written here about being so influenced by my parents in the way I handle love and relationships, it's interesting to be back here, so close to the womb as I work towards castrating this part of me that run towards that which withholds affection. In some weird way, this trip feels like returning to the scene of the crime.
So the song of the week is Tori Amos's "Mother." I love my mother beyond words, but I don't need to follow in her footsteps. There's so much about who she is that I want to continue to emluate, but that doesn't mean I have to emulate all the choices she's made and what she does. That's what this song, in part, is about.
posted by Jason Sechrest at 4:44 PM
5 Comments:
Good Song choice Jason, yeah was wondering where you were hiding LOL Good to be back in the bosom of things huh. Yes that post on Parents,Love & relationships very insightful so tell me did you show it to your mother? Take Care safe trip to SF!
this is called work-addict epidemic. It happened to me in the first 2 years, but now I sort of develope it to cure it. But honestly, one would be really bored if there's nothing to do. Happy Vacation
Dewayne - Yes, my mother is one of my best friends so we got right to it just as soon as we saw each other. LOL... She is very understanding and has always been profusely apologetic about what I witnessed when I was younger. We went over all of that yeeears ago. She says she sometimes wishes she'd had me when she was older and more knowledgable. She did, after all, have me as a teenager! xo L, J.
Jimmy - LOL... thanks, I'm going to try! Lots of work to be done though. xo L, J.
God you and I are so much a like and yet so diffrent, in a good way. I know exactly how you feel about your mother. She is so much a part of me it is crazy some times. People are always commenting on how much of my mother they see in me and sometimes it just drives me nuts. I love my mother more then anything…….but I really just want to be my own person with my own strengths and weaknesses. Anyhow can’t wait to see you this weekend!
Love Nichole….err I mean Caleb Carter
By the way, today at work, I felt that I NEED a vacation (can't wait till April when I'm on the plane). I guess I'm awake from it. May be it's nice for you to abandon average of daily 500 emails and comments a day. Of course the nightmare comes when you return to work.....
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