30 Days Has September...

The sun is beginning to set over West Hollywood and I'm looking back on this 30 day journey with a mixture of pride, focus and trepidation towards the future. The colors are more vibrant. The days, they last longer. My creativity is at an all-time high. My ambition is that of when I first stepped off the plane to L.A. at 18.

...A month of absolute sobriety can do a lot for you.

I was never a raging lush or addict by any means, but I did indulge and partake in a bit more than I became comfortable with. Everything has it's time and place and as someone who runs several businesses for a living, partying really shouldn't be at the top of one's weekly "To Do" list.

Since I didn't really have a problem to begin with, it wasn't so much the sobriety itself that has made a difference in the way I see things, but moreover the self-discipline that has become a huge source of empowerment for me. Living intentionally, remaining in control, managing myself like I manage my boys really. Challenging myself really reminds me of my strength and it's something I need to do more of in every aspect of my life. If my blog is too easy to write, I need to make it harder to give something more entertaining and even more fun to the people reading it, for example!

That's not to say the haze being gone hasn't provided a lot of clarity as well. I think a lot of things that were wrong in my life or a lot of things I could have been doing better were more easily dismissed in that haze. I don't like that. I don't want things to be easily dismissed. I want to work at my optimum level.

So... why ever touch anything mind altering again?

Same reason I had before. I never did it to run from anything or to supress myself. I do it because it's fun. And because, in moderation (key words!) parties with friends can be a true bonding experience.

...And because there will always be that Liza within me that just loves being a complete and total mess. ;-)

It is, however, merely one dimension, one of many personalities I have within me. I would like to start sharing more of myself with the people I love and the people who love me and I think I've begun doing that this month with a lot of people in my life. You all know who you are. What I've shared with you of me is real and I appreciate your receiving it.

Thank you all for your support over the past 30 days.

I have a bottle Veuve chilling and it's calling my name.

What is the saying? 30 days has September! ...Let me drink until November!