A New Day

I woke up yesterday with a renewed spirit for life. I can't explain what it was or how it happened. It just sort of hit me the second I awakened. I made some tea and felt very productive -- got right to work, which is odd for a Saturday! And I even meditated, did yoga and made my triumphant return to the gym. The guy behind the juice counter said, "I haven't seen you here in a while! Have you been coming in?" I cocked my head and laughed, "Um... clearly not, my friend! CLEARLY not!"

It's true. I know it. You know it. The American people know it. We all know it. Jason ate himself into a coma over the Summer. Oh well, I lost 30 pounds last year. I can lose it again this coming year. But rest assured, like Liza after a surgery, divorce and rehab... I AM BACK! You can all breathe now. He's NOT getting any bigger!!!

Anyway, the gym was fantastic! I forgot how good it actually makes you feel, exhausting your muscles and sweating out the toxins. And how horny it makes you too!

Stopped by Whole Foods and got healthy, organic groceries so I could immediately get back on my diet. Came home and showered. Went to dinner with my friend Tom, the photographer from San Diego, who is responsible for many of the "Jason's Discoveries" you see on JasonCurious.com as well as all of the photos in Kyle Foxxx's blog so far. He's really talented so any porn boys looking for free content for their web sites, email Tom at coolpix4u2002@aol.com.

Along with this new air I seemed to be breathing yesterday, I almost frightened myself in that... I seemed to love PEOPLE! This is rare, as anyone who actually knows me will tell you. I'm not social unless I'm paid to be. I don't really like "people" very much at all. I've always had just a few friends who I keep close to me and that's about it. If I'm out at an event, it's because I'm paid to be there or getting publicity from it.

But yesterday, I felt like I was seeing the world through completely different eyes. It was damned near euphoric! For the first time, I felt like I was really practicing what I preach in looking at all human beings as being the same and all worthy of a damned smile when you walk by them, you know? Natalie Portman once said on Inside the Actor's Studio that the key to being a good actor is that you really have to love people and come at life from a viewpoint of true equality. I think I finally understood what she meant yesterday. And by loving everyone around me for who they are instead of wishing they were something different or saw me in a different way, I loved myself a little bit more. It was freeing. Like, by not judging everyone else on their appearances or even actions, I wasn't judging myself either, instead focusing on how at the core of our beings, we're all made up of the same stuff.

Anyway, point is! I decided I felt like going out last night! And I wasn't even paid! Imagine that.

Jonathan Chang has had me on his permanent VIP Guest List at his club Popular held at Here Lounge in West Hollywood forever and I never seem to take full advantage of it. So when I heard Angel Benton was going, I asked him to meet me outside at 11:15.

Sure enough, I get to the club, I wait outside and by the time 11:30 rolls around, Angel still has yet to show. Under normal circumstances, I would have left. I would never wait that long by myself outside a club and I sure as hell would not have gone in all alone. ... Yes, I AM this insecure when I'm not on a stage with a microphone in my hand! It's sad, I know.

But with the inner change yesterday, I didn't seem to care AT ALL. I smiled at everyone walking by, flirted with a few cute boys and even ran into DJ Pauolo Ramirez and a girl he was hanging out with who proceeded to tell me how much she enjoys anal sex as well as gay porn. She also asked what I was doing and when I told her waiting for a friend she said, "Yeah, riiiight! I bet you are. You're all alone, aren't you?"

Man. She picked a good night. Any other evening, I think my soul would have been crushed. But we just talked, laughed and I did end up going into the club by myself to find Jonathan Chang. Eventually, Angel arrived and Jonathan escorted us to what he called "the porn cabana" where Lex Sabre and Trevor Knight were busy discussing the length of their penises while Andy Kirra sat between them in hog heaven. Director Ross Cannon was also there, looking lovely as usual, and I was having such a blast talking to everyone, I decided I really didn't want to drink and would just order a water or sugar free Red Bull.

About ten minutes into it, with lots of people I didn't know piling into the cabana, I hear someone say, "That's Scott Boardman." Now, as you know, Scott is the Cybersocket editor who took my place as host of Cocktails with the Stars at Micky's.

I clasp onto Trevor's arm and whisper into his ear, "Is Scott Boardman really here?"

Trevor turns to me and says, "Of course Scott Boardman's here! This is his cabana. It's his birthday party."

My jaw dropped and I couldn't help but laugh. Here I was, crashing Scott Boardman's birthday party! And I hadn't even intended to!

I was introduced to him and he was very, very sweet. Nice guy and cute too! I insisted that we get a photo together to preserve the moment for posterity. ...And I immediately ordered a drink!

Kyle Foxxx arrived with his friend Travis shortly thereafter, followed by Rusty of RentBoy.com fame, followed by Tyler Mason. Needless to say, the party had begun!

Lex and I gossiped about his crush on a certain someone who was at the club that night.

Andy Kirra just got out of an abusive relationship and is looking happier and healthier than ever.

Kyle was taking his shirt off and dancing the night away.

Tyler kept showing off his perfect twink ass to me all night and we ended up making out a bit.

Trevor told me that although we have fucked a lot of the same people, the difference is that he doesn't do one-night stands. He said he has to make four "goodnight sweetheart" calls before bed every night and might have one trick spend the night. I was like, um, yeah, I am definitely more likely to make ONE "goodnight sweetheart" call and have four tricks over to NOT spend the night. But that's also because I'm in love!

Angel, being the only sober one in the group (and there was a lot more going on than alcohol! yours truly included!), he was not having it towards the end of the night, but for the most part danced along with the rest of us. I think he even got a lap dance from Lex Sabre at one point! It seemed unlike Angel though to see him just sitting there watching everything go on around him. He's usually right at the center of everything. Of course, maybe that's because the last two times he's gone out, he's ended up sucking face with porn stars! First, Robbie Angel and then that newcomer boy Will. I think our little Angel was wishing Free Willy would've shown up and made his evening a lot more... ahem, eventful.

Regardless, I had a kick ass time and need to go to Popular more, not mention just be more social in general. I had a great time with everyone, got home and crashed at 2:30 am.

Awakened this morning at 9:00 am, answered work emails and went to the gym again! (YES! Feels so good!) I'm gearing up for my power birthday week. I see Barbra Streisand live on Monday, host The X Show at RAGE with one of my favorite porn stars Brent Corrigan on Tuesday, see the Madonna concert on NBC on Wednesday, have Thanksgiving dinner with Mikey's family on Thursday and see Liza Minnelli in Vegas on Saturday.

Yet, nothing is yet slated for my actual birthday, Sunday, November 26th. Hmm... after all that, I might be ready to just chill at home before I start my insane holiday schedule that will take me to Mexico, New York, Indiana, Arizona and Nevada and possibly Palm Springs. I'm calling it my own version of Tori's 5 1/2 Weeks Tour.

More on that and where you can find me later. Stay tuned! :-P